I’m going to say something women aren’t supposed to say–I love my body.
My favorite part of my body are my shoulders. I’m not entirely sure why; it’s an irrational feeling. During the summer I like to show them off as much as possible with halter-top shirts and dresses.
I also love my curves, but I try to keep those more covered up. Those are for me, and for whoever else has earned the right, to enjoy.
I love my legs. I have really strong legs from years of dancing, walking, and riding my bike all the time. My legs can do just about anything I want them to.
I love my stomach, which makes rolls when I slouch like most healthy stomachs do. When I want to look thinner I can suck it in, but I think it looks fine even when I don’t.
I love my thighs. They store most of my body’s fat, so it’s often hard to find jeans that will fit them. They jiggle. When I’m naked and I draw my thighs up to my stomach, it feels warm and comforting.
I love my hands. I have long fingers that are perfect for playing piano. The nails on my fingers are strange–they’re all different shapes. Some are rectangular, some are ovular, and some are nearly square.
I love my face. My bottom lip is much bigger than my top lip, and one of my eyes opens much wider than the other. My parents asked me if I wanted to have surgery to get that corrected, and for a while I did, but honestly, I’m terrified of surgery and I don’t really care that much about how wide my eyes can open. My eyes are either brown, hazel, or green; it depends.
I love my feet, which are too wide for many types of shoes and rather ugly because of ballet. I’ve had so many blisters on so many parts of my feet over the years, both from ballet and from my habit of wearing insensible shoes, but my feet have taken it all in stride.
My body is conventionally attractive, but that’s not why I love it. I love it because it’s always been there for me, because of the good sensations it provides, because I’m so intimately familiar with it, and because it’s all mine.
It wasn’t always this way. Until very recently, I hated my body, or thought I did. It was the same story–too fat, too weird, too asymmetrical, too disproportional. I pinched my thighs and stomach all the time. Sometimes I’d stop reading or doing homework and realize that, unthinkingly, my hand had drifted to my stomach and was grabbing it and trying to hide the extra fat.
When I dieted or exercised, it felt like I was punishing my body. I took a sick pleasure in this. I liked to make myself hungry, sweaty, and exhausted. I counted calories, and some days I ate as little as 700 calories. That qualifies as a starvation diet. There, I said to my body. Take that.
Things are very different now. When I exercise, I like to think about my muscles working. Sometimes I even touch them while I’m working out so that I can feel them move. When my muscles are sore, I feel like they’re happy and exhausted. I stretch them and imagine them thanking me.
When I try to diet, I enjoy the feeling of eating well and of not having too much food in my body. I hate feeling stuffed; I prefer small portions. When I’m dieting, I’m more mindful of what I eat, and I feel my body appreciating each bite, and I like that feeling.
People think that loving your body means either thinking it’s flawless or completely abandoning the idea of health or beauty. The media perpetuates this myth–only “perfect” people (who don’t exist anyway) should love their bodies, and those who are “flawed” but love them anyway must simply be blinding themselves.
It’s not true. I don’t think my body’s perfect at all. It has plenty of flaws, some of which I mentioned above. Some of those flaws I counteract–I tweeze my eyebrows, wear makeup, diet (sometimes), wear flattering clothes, and use lotion. Other flaws I genuinely don’t care about.
But don’t we love people who aren’t perfect? Don’t we love our favorite writers, even though they might’ve written a couple books we could barely get through? Don’t we love our childhood homes despite the peeling paint and faded crayon marks on the walls?
You don’t have to be perfect to be loved, and neither does your body. I don’t think I’m the only woman who knows this. But I’m one of the few who’s willing to stick up for my body and declare that I love it despite a culture that says that women ought to be ashamed of what they were born with.
My body is there for me even when no one else is. I refuse to devalue it.
Thank you for this! I love my body as well (even though I sometimes have a hard time not pinching my stomach fat.) I actually wrote about something similar to this recently if you want to check it out 🙂
Thank you! 🙂 I’m glad someone can relate. I’m going to read your post now. 🙂
Is this a trend in the blogosphere? If not, it should be.
Hehe, is what a trend?
Thank you for writing this! I enjoyed reading your post!
Thank you very much! I just checked out your blog and I really liked it. I hope you keep writing.
Excellent, I really enjoyed this post. We should all aspire to feel this way.
it’s about self respect. it’s about self worth. remain worthy.
“But don’t we love people who aren’t perfect? Don’t we love our favorite writers, even though they might’ve written a couple books we could barely get through? Don’t we love our childhood homes despite the peeling paint and faded crayon marks on the walls?
You don’t have to be perfect to be loved, and neither does your body. I don’t think I’m the only woman who knows this. But I’m one of the few who’s willing to stick up for my body and declare that I love it despite a culture that says that women ought to be ashamed of what they were born with.”
Well, the whole post as it reminds me of that amazing Eve Ensler “love your tree” clip.. In nature I find we love the imperfect so much more than we do with ourselves… and it’s sad..
I haven’t seen the clip of which you speak, but I’ll check it out.
Thanks for reading! 🙂
I admire this as an effort to stand up to a “culture that says that women ought to be ashamed of what they were born with”, but other than that I don’t see much point in loving or hating one’s body unless of course you are a supermodel or an athlete, who directly make a living off their body. I personally find my body quite unremarkable and never much think about it in any great detail. And now that I think of it, all other organs except for the brain and the genitals seem quite boring. 😛
Really? They don’t seem boring to me at all. I’m constantly amazed at how a structure that evolved through natural selection could do so many different things effortlessly and simultaneously.
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” When my muscles are sore, I feel like they’re happy and exhausted. ”
I love this.. I’m laaaazy, and in order to stay motivated to exercise (I dance and kickbox) I have to concentrate on how good and strong I feel after a workout. I’m not interested in punishing myself.. only in challenging myself and feeling accomplished in doing so.